"Dude, Where's my Bible?"

Um yeah, so my Friday didn't really start off too well. I get THIS email from my "BEST FRIEND":

"courtney,

i'm writing because i have to get something off my chest. i've actually written you several letters but thrown them away and written several e-mails but deleted them. i'm just having a hard time finding the right words and conjuring up enough courage to say what i need to. well, here goes.

as you know i am trying my best to live my life for Christ. of course i'm going to make mistakes as we all do, but i am doing everything i can to make as few as possible. one thing i have to do to withstand temptations is to surround myself by other christians. i know that i am just not strong enough to avoid them by myself therefore i ask for help from God and my brothers and sisters in Christ. i know that the christian friends i've made will walk with me through every step of the way to a better spiritual life.

well, i'm having a difficult time because i know that you have not been saved and do not intend to be any time soon. i know that you do not want to give up some of the worldly things you do, for God. i strongly disagree, but cannot change your mind or force anything upon you. i do wish that you could see how much better and how fullfilling life is when you're living for God but the only way you can really know is by doing it yourself. i used to get really annoyed with my mother when she would try to talk to me about God but i am so thankful today that she didn't give up. i am the happiest right now than i have ever been in my entire life. i know that being a christian isn't always a bed of roses, but i also have faith that God will help me through when times get hard.

what i'm saying is i don't think it is wise for me to continue our friendship under the current circumstances. i'm not trying to give you an ultimatum. i'm just saying that until you are ready to hand your life over to God, i can't hang out with you. i just think that we have different views about christianity and it has caused me some personal anguish. i haven't spoken to you about it before today because i am so afraid of making you mad or just think i'm an idot, however this is something i have grown to feel very strongly about and didn't think it should be put off any longer.

if you ever decide you are ready for God to come into your heart, i will be here. if you ever just need to talk, i will be here; but for right now, i can't hang out with you.

p.s. i'd still like to give you and zoey your christmas presents so i will bring them by sun.

raven"

Isn't THAT some shit?! Like I'm a hell-raising-whore of a sinner or something. She makes it out as if I go out every night and party, leaving my daughter alone or something. Or that I've been on a rampage of sleepless nights of drugs and partying. Where does this bitch get off?

First off - I love God and God loves me. That's a given. I have my life, my health, and my gorgeous daughter because of God. Yes, I may go out with friends when Zoey is with her Dad - but I don't do drugs - EVER - and I NEVER drink nor smoke cigarettes around my daughter. EVER. And I don't party 'till the wee hours of the morning. I can understand the fact she might give in to temptation - but hell! It's not like I've been asking her to go party & get drunk with me! I asked her ONCE a few weeks ago to go to have dinner with me at Simply Fondue and she said No. Her behavior, to me, is almost psychotic. I've NEVER known her to be like this. I mean, it's WONDERFUL that she's changing her life around for the better, and that she feels good about her life now. More power to her. But to belittle a friend over different beliefs? A friend who stood by her through drug use, an abortion, and numerous infidelities. A friend who's gotten her several jobs, only to have her walk out on them. A friend who's always supported her, and would always give her the shirt off her back. And THIS is how she treats me in the end? Ha. I really don't need a friend like her anyhow, but it's hard loosing a friend after 10+ years.

Anyway, Friday I got off of work at 11am and finished my Christmas shopping. Friday night, Shamus and I took his son & Zoey to eat at Chili's and then went to look at Christmas lights. His son was SO well behaved for a 4 year old. Very polite, and even shared his toys with Zoey. Such a little cutie.

Saturday, Zoey and I went to Nana's. We went to dinner with the family Sat. night to Landry's - where my baby sister works. And seeing as how we get a 50% family discount, I ordered some big-ass shrimp dinner that was like $21.99. Shrimp scampi, grilled shrimp, stuffed shrimp and breaded shrimp. I was SO looking forward to my monsterous meal of SHRIMP. On the first bite, however, I broke a fucking tooth IN HALF! OMG - I was crying. It hurt. It was a molar that was already slightly fractured - and some of the filling was missing. But shit! I didn't expect it to break! So, I spent the rest of dinner cautiously chewing on the other side of my mouth. Yeeowch!

Sunday, we went to church with my Mom. (Ha, imagine that! Me? Church??? No way!) Whatever. Before church, though, we ate at this place called the Dream Cafe. All organic and healthy foods. I had wheat pancakes with tomato juice. MMm, they were GOOD. My Mom had these english muffins with hummice and poached eggs. It was GOOD.

Last night was our Christmas party with my Mom's side of the family. We ate & did our Chinese gift exchange. I ended up with exactly what I wanted - what my Mom brough - which is a 7 piece stainless steel Chefmate cookware set. YAY! New pots & pans! I was SO excited. Zoey got the book, "Guess How Much I Love You" along with some clothing. My baby sister got stuck with a popcorn machine, my middle sister came home with a toaster oven and my poor Mom & Alfred came home with a hotplate and some ugly wall hangings! Ha ha.

Over all it was a very crazy weekend to say the least.

Yeah, I'm ready for 2003. MY New Years Resolution? To join a gym. Yup.