another entry - consider yourself bored

So my weight watchers isn't going too well. I really don't need it, but really wanted to eat healthier. I mean, I'm currently like 110lbs - but I definately still have somewhat of a baby-pooch goin' on. Ugh. Hate it. And I'm sure if I got my lazy ass up off the couch from watching Rachel Rays 30-Minute Meals, to do some situps or Pilates, I would shapen up. But noooo! I sit on the couch with my homemade Tollhouse chocolate chip cookies watching cooking shows. I suck.

So SD calls me today. He works 3pm-Midnight. I asked him if he was hanging out with me this weekend, and he said YEP. He's kind of boring to hang around though. I wish I could meet some people that actually had an INTEREST in me!

I so do NOT need another man. But, I think it's only a womanly-instinct to want to feel/be loved. Or hugged. Or kissed. Or cuddled. Or taken to dinner. You know, the mushy shit. Yeah, I actually LIKE it. I know I'm probably asking for WAY too much from the male species. Or, IS there really a man out there who WILL take care of me and actually WANT to? Not just to get into me undies. I like holding hands, talking about nothing, sharing strawberries, kissing. Geezus, I should just write a damn love novel and get it out of my system. I'm just lonely, I know. But I want someone to fill this passionate void in me! I miss someone thinking about me. Hell, I know Jeremy still does, but I'm not talking about him. He gives me an icky feeling in my stomach.

He told me he went to the mall the other day with his ex for lunch & shopping. Hrmmm, was he attempting to piss me off or something? Because frankly, I don't give a shit who he hangs out with. But it seemed his whole story focused around the fact he went with his ex. WHO CARES BUDDY? Me? No. Sorry.

I still can't believe I'm only 23 and already getting divorced. *sigh*