Got God?

Zoey slept all night last night! She went to bed at 9pm, (when she had been going to bed around 10 or later) and got up at 5:30. (when she had been waking up at 3am & wanting to stay up and play)

I receive Pamper’s Parents email updates on the age progression of your child, and in the most recent one I received about having a 13 month old, stated something about the fact that if there had been a death, divorce or any other type of stressful situation in the household, that it could have an effect on your child. (such as sleeplessness, anxiety, & being very whiney/clingy) Which I have noted Zoey exhibiting –all except for the anxiety. But, Jeremy and I separated 3 months ago – why would it just now have an effect? Maybe it’s because she’s staying at his apartment occasionally now? It somewhat worries me. I hold her as MUCH as possible and when I get home from work with her – I sit down and talk with her and play with her instead of ploping in front of the t.v. or something. I want her to KNOW that I’m not leaving her. I guess at her 15 month check up, I will question her ped. about it.

My best friends baby shower is this weekend and I’m excited! I’m a little disappointed because I’m not throwing it – like I have for her other 2 boys, however, in my current situation, it would have been a little difficult for me. The girls of her Life Group from church are throwing it. I’m just ready for her to have the baby – as is she. It seems like she’s been pregnant FOREVER. But even when she does have him, (Micah is ‘his’ name) she told me that she won’t be going out to bars anymore & not sure if she’ll be drinking. Her and her family/husband have been a lot more involved in church & were Baptized and saved, therefore I think her ‘ways’ have slightly changed from how she was pre-pregnancy. Which is good! I’m not knocking having faith nor their beliefs, however, I will miss her occasionally hanging out with me.

She began witnessing to me the other day and it really weirded me out. I mean, she’s never been very ‘Godly’ – and now for her to be witnessing to ME? She was asking me if I’d ever been saved or if I would want to be saved & change ‘my ways.’ Which, I don’t necessarily think ‘my ways’ are anything to awfully sinful. She also questioned if I think I will go to heaven when I die. Um, hello! Yeah! Of course I do! I know The Lord died for our sins & that he is our Savior. But I guess I just think differently than most Christians do. Some may say I’m not even a Christian – because I do not exhibit a Christian behavior. But, that is one’s own opinion.

Ugh – enough. I’m SO glad it rained today. I just wish I was at home when it was! So Zoey and I could cuddle & play all day.